thanks everyone, from the bottom of my heart for all the good wishes. some of you know quite
personally the very rough times I had for the last 5 years or so with my DH's illness and passing. Life does go on, and it was so very important to him that I embrace that. It was hard, and I fought it and didn't know how to even start. And the weird thing is, my DH really hand picked my fiance---he talked to me several times about going on and mentioned Bill in that talk. But, I thought he was "taken" and didn't even think of that possibility---totally put it out of my mind. And then, the earth and moon and stars tilted just right and put us together and we clicked. Just like that. small miracles. Thanks again everyone. and please talk me out of preparing everything once we decide when/where/how. I already have lists started for no date/no venue----gahhhh!