Oh Carol, what an awful thing to go through.
I had an abusive boyfriend once too - he just flipped out one night and went to jail and it was so awful, I had to move in the middle of the night, get restraining orders, couch surfed, the whole shebang. I hope you find a nice and safe place to move to, and get people to help you move so that you can focus on feeling better. Many hugs to you and good thoughts.